the list of proud-parent moments comes and goes…a sad testimony of self-focus and trying to be an adult while raising one.  justin sterling said the pay-off of being a parent was “1000 precious memories” and as I get older, i understand.  the little picture he drew, the fathers day gift from when he was 5, a blur, middle school, me me me and now were eye to eye, and i’m filled with doubt about who i’ve been and every moment i missed.  there are, however, some things that rise above the morass of being human, a joy to share with mini-me come of age.  the 70’s were alive with sounds of music, and so is the house, as i witness the next generation of thrash and retro-blues work it out.  i always dreamed but never dared; now we can dream together, and i can rest in the saving grace of getting older, perhaps one of the few benefits that counters everything else; i want his dream more for him than for i want mine for me, and in this, i find a sunpatch of freedom.